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Just browsing the old entries, found a test. [Jun. 3rd, 2006|10:17 am]
Pawn# 0015972
[Current Location |Tim's House]
[mood |calmcalm]
[music |Fans go tick tick tick...]

Your results:
You are James T. Kirk (Captain)
James T. Kirk (Captain)
70%
Deanna Troi
65%
Worf
65%
Mr. Sulu
60%
Will Riker
55%
Jean-Luc Picard
55%
Chekov
50%
Leonard McCoy (Bones)
50%
Geordi LaForge
50%
Spock
45%
Mr. Scott
45%
Beverly Crusher
40%
Uhura
30%
Data
26%
An Expendable Character (Redshirt)
20%
You are often exaggerated and over-the-top
in your speech and expressions.
You are a romantic at heart and a natural leader.

Click here to take the Star Trek Personality Quiz



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Darn you John... once again, another Test Raid [May. 29th, 2006|11:00 pm]
Pawn# 0015972
[Current Location |Only few care, and they already know.]
[mood |tiredtired]
[music |None]







.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-




Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful, kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your almost angelic! You find joy in others happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in pain. You want to make everyone around you feel good about themselves and if someone is upset you can tend to become rather upset as well which means you are sympathetic and raise others above yourself. Being as kind and good-natured as you are people have most likely hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up every time. You may look fragile but you are stronger then most tend to see. Life is beautiful no matter how you look at it and you understand that people make mistakes. Not everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in the bad which is a talent few posses. Dont ever let anyone change you. You truly have a beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.
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What Kind of Kiss Do You REALLY Like??? (For Girls and Guys, I Guess)




You like Romantic Kisses! when you kiss someone, you make sure that you really care about them and that they feel the same way about you. for you, kissing is very special and you love the feelings behind it. you get a rush out of knowing that it isn't just a meaningless crush, though you might fall hard too easily. just be careful not to get your heart broken.
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What makes you happy?(great pix,honest results)




The thing that makes you happy,even though you might not realise it is LOVE and caring. You like to spend quiet time at home with you family or hang with your friends. You're a very emotonal person and you cant possibly survive without love in your life.You're really funloving and can make most people laugh (i kinda envy you for that),you also probably have tons and tons of friends not to mention all the people who envy you secretly and will try to invade your private life, if you let them too close - and all that just because you're such a nice person.Watch out though - a person such as you is very vulnerable when it comes to trusting. Don't over do it...as optimistic a you are, in reality there are many treators. In love you can only find happyness with someone opposite to you (like..character i mean). He/she'll complete you in a unimaginable way and make you feel truly special and unique. If you find that person, the two of you'll be like Cindarella and her prince charming.Good luck and please rate if you liked the result.
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Are You Okay? (Quick Quiz, Long Results, Quotes Included, Anime Pictures)




No, You Are Not Okay You sit up at night wondering if you will ever be okay and smile again. You wish that things will change and you will be able to smile for real. It hurts you to look upon people that have everything going for them. You cry silently and wonder why no one will accept you into their hearts and love you back. Trust no longer comes easily for you, same with love and everything to do with hope has been erased. People may call you "emo" and label you because they will never ever understand. For some, with lives that are lovable, they dont understand how someone could hate themselves. But it honestly doesn't matter what they say. I cannot tell you that your life will look up. I don't know it ever will. The only person that can change it is you. You and only you. I really wish people would stop asking me how I am. They should know by now that the answer is "I'm fine" and I'm getting really tired of lying all the time.When they say you should give up, just raise the volume on your radio.They all think Im fine, they think Ive stopped & Im betterbut the only thing thats gotten better was my ways at hiding itSometimes I catch myself staring at the ceilingwondering if I'm the only one dealing with these feelings
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Just giving something a final plot. [Apr. 3rd, 2006|12:07 am]
Pawn# 0015972
[mood |tiredtired]
[music |Various]

I found this in my MySpace. I wanted to get rid of it, but still have it. So over time, this will be lost in the memories of my LJ history and this post will be its last burial spot.


What Makes You.. by SheBangs12
Your name?
Your gender?
What makes you sexy?What the Hell? You aren't sexy!
What makes you pretty?Your smile
What makes you loveable?How sensitive you are
What makes you fun?Your ability to keep smiling
What makes you irresistable?Your kiss
What makes you cute?The way you walk
Quiz created with MemeGen!



Done.
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DAMMIT!!! Another test raid! No link this time, its full page! HAHAHAHA! [Mar. 27th, 2006|01:25 pm]
Pawn# 0015972
[mood |hungryhungry]
[music |Last Train Home - The Lost Prophets]

Somehow, Waka Laka comes to mind with this result...

Dance the night away by karchan85
Name
What you Look like
The MusicAnime OST
Quiz created with MemeGen!


Just for laughs and giggles....

You Are 80% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care.
Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.


Maybe I'm the next Mussolini?

You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally.
You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go.
Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control.
Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow.

You are a realist when it comes to luck.
You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.
You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But you do your best to try to make your own luck.

You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.
You realize that working the system does get you further.
You know who to defer to and who to control.
When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.


There's nothing wrong with this... it just means that I mean what I say, right?

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.
That doesn't mean you don't rock out...
You just rock out with meaning.
For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.


Oh man, now I'm sooo hungry.

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun.
You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life...
Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut.
To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.


DAMMIT!!! I NEED BREAKFAST!

Pepperoni Pizza

Robust and dominant.
When you go for something, you go full force.
You tend to take control of situations easily.
And in return, you get a ton of respect.


I still like Winter.

You Are Sunshine

Soothing and calm
You are often held up by others as the ideal
But too much of you, and they'll get burned

You are best known for: your warmth

Your dominant state: connecting


BOOYAH!

You Are Fozzie Bear

"Wocka! Wocka!"
You're the life of the party, and you love making people crack up.
If only your routine didn't always bomb!
You may find more groans than laughs, but always keep the jokes coming.


Ugh... I'll take the Crab Juice!

You Are 7 Up

Understated and subtle, people warm up to you slowly.
But once they're hooked, they can't imagine going back to anyone else!

Your best soda match: Diet Coke

Stay away from: Mountain Dew


WOO!!!

You Are 24 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.


To leave on a happy note

Your Fortune Is

Baseball got it all wrong � man with four balls cannot walk.
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YAY! LJ Karaoke.... man I'm bored... [Feb. 18th, 2006|10:58 pm]
Pawn# 0015972
[mood |boredbored]
[music |This entry is the list]

Hmm... in my playlist... the first, seven songs don't have lyrics.

Song 8: Romancing Train - Move

Romancing Train, you'll hear the whistle again
Bring all your pains, yeah, it's tonight

Soshite tabi wa hajimaru kimi to futari dokoka e
Trance Euro Express hashirisaru toorisugiru yakei ni
Motto kokoro kikasete hitomi tojite yowasete
Futari dake o tsurete'ku ai dake tsurete tabidatsu
(hey come and join to the express)

Romancing Train, bring all the pain tsukareta sono kokoro o
Romancing Train, whistle again yasashiku daite kureru
Ai ga koko ni aru koto
(bring all the tears and pain right now, bring it out)
Nemuru made mimimoto de sasayaite ite

Moonlight terasu shin'ya no tachikomeru hikui KURAUDO
Kono te nobaseba todokisou tsukinukete maiagaru hodo
IEE, yawaraka ni nemuru kimi okosanai you ni mekuru
Paperback, furui kotoba tsuzurareta ROMANSU

Hoho o kata ni uzumeru atatakasa ga tsutawaru
Trance Euro Express kono ai wa sotto mamorarete iru
Yume no you na shinjitsu kanaderareta senritsu
Tomenaide kono mama de kiteki o yoru ni nokoshite
(hey come and join the express)

Romancing Train, bring all the pain nagareta sono namida mo
Romancing Train, whistle again tsutsumare iyasarete'ku
Ai wa koko ni ikite'ru
(bring all the tears and pain right now, bring it out)
Futari kiri yoake made yurarete itai
(bring all the tears and pain oh yeah, romancing train)

Wow wow romancing train goin' up goin' down
Makes me forget my pain La-la-la la-la-la
(you'll hear the endless of refrain)
Wow wow romancing train goin' up goin' down
(you'll hear the endless of refrain)
Makes me forget to cry my love is in express

Soshite kimi to futari kiri samayou monogatari
Kono tabiji shuten ni matte'ru mono ima wasuretai
Yume o kanaeru michinori sono negai koso ga tsuyoi kagayaki
Saa namida mo tsurete'kou Romancing Train


Romancing Train, bring all the pain tsukareta sono kokoro o
Romancing Train, whistle again yasashiku daite kureru
Romancing Train bring all the pain susunde yuku yuuga ni
Romancing Train futari wa utsukushisa o motomete
Ai wa yume o mite iru
(bring all the tears and pain right now, bring it out)
Kono mama de tada sotto nemurasete ite
(bring all the tears and pain oh yeah, romancing train)

Song 9: Welcome to my Life - Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Song 10: Goodbye - SR-71

I'm everything you know
You wonder friend or foe
I'm the burning in your throat when you swallow
But you spit me out
Your stomach full of doubt
And still you're faking every word out of your mouth
But you won't let go
It's all about control
Understand I'm born to lead you will follow
I don't wanna stay
I'm running away
Don't you hear me when i say

Goodbye...so long...nice try...I'm gone
You don't like being second
I don't like being wrong
I won't forget the way you made me feel
I won't regret running away from here
So I'll say Goodbye again
So I'll say Goodbye again

Now it's there to see
You've forgotten me
Ever since I was the prince among theives
So you hold me down
Strip away my crown
Can't contain me knowing all the truth I found
Always thinking small
Helping me to fail
Now you're jealousy and hate consumes us all
I don't wanna stay
I'm running away
Don't you hear me when i say

Goodbye...so long...nice try...I'm gone
You don't like being second
I don't like being wrong
I won't forget the way you made me feel
I won't regret running away from here
You think you see the world but you see nothing,
Time is only gonna make it worse in the end,
so I'll say Goodbye again

Don't hit me with you fears
I don't fit with your ideas
You missed what I'm about
I earn my way out
And in the end
I'll say goodbye again

I won't forget the way you made me feel
I won't regret running away from here
I won't forget the way you made me feel
I won't regret running away from here
So I'll say Goodbye again(Goodbye...so long...nice try...I'm gone)
So I'll say Goodbye again(Goodbye...so long...nice try...I'm gone)
So I'll say Goodbye again(Goodbye...so long...nice try...I'm gone)
So I'll say Goodbye again(Goodbye...so long...nice try...I'm gone)

So I'll say Goodbye again

Song 11: Devil's Cry - Devil May Cry 3

Steal a soul for a second chance
But you will never become a man
My chosen torture makes me stronger
In a life that craves the hunger
A Freedom and a quest for life
Until the end of the judgment night

Stepping forth a cure for soul's demise
Reap the tears of the victim's cries
Yearning more to hear the suffer of a
Of a demon as I put it under

Killed before a time to kill them all
Passed down the righteous law
Serve a justice that dwells in me
Lifeless corpse as far as the eye can see

The eye can see
The eye can see
The eye can see

(Clean voice lyrics)

We are falling
The light is calling
Tears inside me
Coming down

Bless me with the
Leaf off of the tree
On it I see
The freedom reign

We are falling
The light is calling
Tears inside
Calm me down

Midnight calling
Mist of resolving
Crown me, with the
Pure green leaf

Bless me with the
Leaf off of the tree
On it I see
The freedom reign

Praise to my father
Blessed by the water
Black night, dark sky
The devil's cry

Song 12: Urei - Kagrra

aa... kaze ni dakarete ai wa kanata e to fuku
fui ni aoida sora wa mabushisugite

shizuka ni tadayoeba
natsukashisa kono kokoro yurameki masu
ten ni hoshi chi ni wa hana watashi ni wa kanata ga ite
dakiyosete kuchidzukete
hohoemi kawashite

aa... kaze ni dakarete ai wa kanata e to fuku
fui ni aoida sora ni tsutsumarete nagasare

sotto kami o nabikasete
sei o muketa anata kara wa
ano hibi no kaori ga shite
namida hoo o tsutau

kaze ni dakarete ai wa kanata e to fuku
fui ni aoida sora wa mabushisugite

motto soba ni iraretanara
motto hayaku kidzuitanara
yubi o karame hanasanai mama
towa ni ikite
kaze ni dakare
ai wa kiete yuku

hikaru kaze ni dakarete ai wa kanata e to fuku
fui ni aoida sora wa awairo ni somerarete

yume no fuku koro kaoru hana ga chiru koro
hitomi tojireba ima mo anata ga ite

Man I'm really bored... but at least now I know my song's lyrics.
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(no subject) [Feb. 12th, 2006|01:23 am]
Pawn# 0015972
Realizing the night I posted this, that this rant is basically 12 years of bottled up emotions and words I've stifled to say on this topic. Now, I shouldn't have blown my lid because this is technically your "first offense" in this matter (if you understand my analogy). I should've just confronted you guys and talked about it normally, but since like I stated earlier, in this topic, I've bottled up my words for 12 years because I didn't want to say anything to end up losing those that I've trusted, and enjoy being with. And seeing that from the past has happened again with people that I really care about, I needed to vent. With all honesty, I'm glad I vented now and with text, as opposed to some time later and with something more than just "words". Regardless... please, try avoiding in the future leaving me in the dark about what you guys are doing if I volunteer to watch something of yours or expect you back in an earlier time. And this doesn't go for just me, I'd appreciate it too if we tried to let others in the know of what we're doing if someone ELSE is left out of the loop. I'm sorry for flippin out, and others say I'm justified for doing so, but please, be more considerate next time. For the groups sake.
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Once again, going down a long and windy road... [Feb. 9th, 2006|08:38 pm]
Pawn# 0015972
[mood |iratelike you fuckin care!]
[music |What music?]

Why do I do this to myself? Why do I constantly sacrifice of myself to help please, amuse, lift up, etc. those that I care about? I've tried many times to find this out, even still, its a mystery to me. Maybe the answer is right infront of my face... I don't know. Earlier, I took a test. A characteristic trait test, one that my mom took for a class, that maybe will help me understand myself a bit better. Honestly, this is the best test I have taken. It has shown to me what exactly I am, how I act, and what I've done. The result:

Warm, empathetic, responsive, and responsible. Highly attuned to the emotions, needs, and motivations of others. Finds potential in everyone, wants to help others fulfill their potential. May act as a catalyst for individual and group growth. Loyal, responsive to praise and criticism. Sociable, facilitates others in a group, and provides inspiring leadership.

Great, but how the hell does that tell me how to cope and fix my problems and flaws. Whatever... but still. I only came to the campus for 2 reasons today. 2. TWO! Piracy, with the help of the Library, and hanging out with the group (more specifically, certain members of the group). <-- In no particular order. So while waiting for the other members to arrive, I get a call from David saying that he could come over, and I say "Do so" because people will be here. David tells me that I should go to get the trailer to show everyone, but I didn’t want to leave because everyone wasn’t there yet. So I call Dan and ask him to bring it with him. One by one, everyone arrives. Well, Karlis is excited about receiving his paycheck and asks David to take him to go cash it. They leave, and naïve me, naturally assumes that they'll be only a short while. Then Cami, Paul, Caleb, and Megan leave, and while rushing out, Megan says "Watch my stuff, ok?" It seems like I was the only who was paying attention, because I agreed. I also heard an earlier mention of food, so once again, naïve me assumed that they’ll be back in a short while. Then Dan left because he had to get his oil changed. Soon, minutes turned to an hour, an hour turned into two. I lost track of time, and some of the others came, but then promptly left. For about an hour… I was alone. Nobody to talk to, nobody to hang with, nobody. Period. I mean, there were people, but I didn’t know who they were, and they were all playing pool. Soon, I get worried and call David. He mentions that he and Karlis bumped in to his friend Burnie, and they’re hangin out at Bennigan’s. FUCKIN Bennigan’s! So then I call Megan, only to find out that that group has been side tracked to hanging out at the Mall. Yeah, side tracked. When she gets back at like 6:10ish, I apologize to her for snapping a little bit on our previous phone call, and she then says how that made her made. I tell her that she should’ve at least given me a call to let me know that she’ll be running a little late. But then she says she didn’t think that was going to be a problem because I’ve never given her trouble when she left to the mall without me. Back then, I wasn’t watching any of her things… BUT THAT’S BESIDE THE POINT! She didn’t feel that it was a problem?!?!? She not telling me that she’s not going to be back for a while isn’t going to be a problem. You know what, whatever… The thing that hurts most is that those that I try to please, or make happy, or feel better, just in the end to be ignored and pushed aside. I mean, David goes to have lunch with Karlis and a friend of Karlis, whom he probably just met because over the phone, David forgot Burnie’s name. Doesn’t tell me, someone who’s waiting for him to come back to unveil his grand masterpiece of a trailer. And Megan, the sole reason why I brought my pad with me, and she gets wrapped up in the moment and doesn’t tell me, the one watching her things, that she went out of plan, to go with to the mall. Only just to then try to make it seem like its my fault that this happened and why I feel bad in the first place. I mean, sure if it was just her that forgot, but 6 people?!?!?! Is it an epidemic? And it doesn’t stop there, oh no! Forgotten by the friends of my deep rooted past. Another who I have confided in, only to use this knowledge to try to hurt me and boost his own ego and position. My Bro, who never calls, or even tries to find out if I’m ok. Maybe its just my poor ability to discern my poor perceptions and poor choices from the truth, or maybe I’m truly just the person that people go to because they know that I’m always good for a quick laugh and pick me up. I go by so underappreciated, it hurts, and this only helps me assure myself that this may be the case. If I didn’t go underappreciated, why the HELL didn’t anyone fill me in that they go side tracked. If its any consolation, anyone reading would damn well know that if I got side tracked from what was planned, and I knew that there was someone or a group of people waiting for me, I’d call them and let them know what’s up. Even as I type this, nobody’s even coming to the library to check up on me. Or to see if I’m even ok.

And then I go over to the Lobby itself and nobody mentions the topic, or apologizes or anything. Its as if everything didn't happen, everything's ok and nothing is the matter. Some stranger gave me a wave before I entered the lobby, and Paul offered a Dot or two, but that's it. The only one in the lobby I exempt from this is Dan. I knew that he had an oil change appointment at 4:00ish, I heard about the shit he went through, and he showed up after that moment of aloneness and helped me preserve my sanity. At first, when I was typing this, I was going to end this rant with some sort of pussy-footed ending that made it seem like it was ambiguous to whether or not it is in fact my fault, and it went something like this:
"It’s probably my insecurity, and demons from my past. Please, someone, anyone, let me know that this is not the case. Let me know that you all honestly have just become too involved with what you were doing. Please… let me know that it's my bad perception of this whole matter and I'm letting my past get the best of me."

BUT NO! Fuck it. If certain friendships have to be lost and or broken in order to find those that truly care about me. Then let's go. LET'S DO IT!!! You wanna dispute, you wanna argue, you wanna settle this and get to the bottom of if this is total disrespect or just my illusion. Try me. Dispute me. Put me to the test. No more false emotions, no more hiding and bottling up fear of losing "friends", put all differences aside and lets do this. Tell me.



Am I right?

Or am I wrong?

And by God, I hope I'm wrong, because I'd much more enjoy it to be my problem that I have to work out, because my faults, when confronted and tackled, only make me stronger.
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I HATE JOHN SOOO MUCH!!! [Jan. 10th, 2006|05:09 pm]
Pawn# 0015972
[mood |amusedamused]
[music |Random 90's Music]

Ok, well, John posted on his journal a couple of quiz things he took. I tried some and found myself spending FOUR HOURS crusing the site taking sooo many quizzes. BAH! Oh well. Oh, and for the Santa letter.... I find it VERY FREAKY that my final point total is my birthday (July 27)

The Tests and the results.Collapse )

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Nothing much... [Jan. 4th, 2006|10:22 am]
Pawn# 0015972
[mood |blankblank]
[music |Encore/Numb - Linkin Park and Jay-Z]

Recently, I've been watching the Romero Zombie Movies, and then last night, saw Land of the Dead. Didn't live up to the other movies... but it did present what Day of the Dead tried to. Zombies that think. Whatever... anyway, I've been also ingulfed in the series Bastard!! I'm probably going to finish off the series completely. I only have volumes 1, 2, and 9. Don't know how many after 9 and quite frankly, don't care. Well, day is breaking and I need to do stuff.

L8ter days
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In case anyone was wondering... I'd like input though [Dec. 21st, 2005|10:03 am]
Pawn# 0015972
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |I'm Still Here - John Rzeznik]

I changed the style of my journal around. Go, investigate, tell me what you think. All comments welcome.

Is it more of me to have the silver and black as opposed to the red and black?
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